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  • strict warning: Non-static method view::load() should not be called statically in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/views.module on line 716.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_filter::options_validate() should be compatible with views_handler::options_validate($form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/filter.handlers.inc on line 570.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_filter::options_submit() should be compatible with views_handler::options_submit($form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/filter.handlers.inc on line 570.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_filter_many_to_one::init() should be compatible with views_handler_filter::init(&$view, $options) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/filter.handlers.inc on line 1562.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_argument::init() should be compatible with views_handler::init(&$view, $options) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/argument.handlers.inc on line 694.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_plugin_display::options_validate() should be compatible with views_plugin::options_validate(&$form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/plugins.inc on line 1861.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_plugin_display::options_submit() should be compatible with views_plugin::options_submit(&$form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/plugins.inc on line 1861.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_plugin_style_default::options() should be compatible with views_object::options() in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/plugins.inc on line 3100.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_plugin_row::options_validate() should be compatible with views_plugin::options_validate(&$form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/plugins.inc on line 3673.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_plugin_row::options_submit() should be compatible with views_plugin::options_submit(&$form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/includes/plugins.inc on line 3673.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_filter_node_status::operator_form() should be compatible with views_handler_filter::operator_form(&$form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/node.views.inc on line 1112.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_field_content::options() should be compatible with views_object::options() in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/cck/includes/content.views.inc on line 262.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_field_comment::init() should be compatible with views_handler_field::init(&$view, $options) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/comment.views.inc on line 480.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_field_username_comment::init() should be compatible with views_handler_field::init(&$view, $options) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/comment.views.inc on line 527.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_field_node_new_comments::pre_render() should be compatible with views_handler_field::pre_render($values) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/comment.views.inc on line 803.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_field_accesslog_path::init() should be compatible with views_handler_field::init(&$view, $options) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/statistics.views.inc on line 289.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_field_file::init() should be compatible with views_handler_field::init(&$view, $options) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/system.views.inc on line 225.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_filter_term_node_tid::value_validate() should be compatible with views_handler_filter::value_validate($form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/taxonomy.views.inc on line 933.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_field_upload_description::init() should be compatible with views_handler_field::init(&$view, $options) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/upload.views.inc on line 269.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_field_user::init() should be compatible with views_handler_field::init(&$view, $options) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/user.views.inc on line 414.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_filter_user_name::value_submit() should be compatible with views_handler_filter_in_operator::value_submit($form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/user.views.inc on line 746.
  • strict warning: Declaration of views_handler_filter_user_name::value_validate() should be compatible with views_handler_filter::value_validate($form, &$form_state) in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/modules/user.views.inc on line 746.
  • strict warning: Non-static method view::load() should not be called statically in /home/nikkie/white.miceplans.net/modules/views/views.module on line 716.

Find myself waking wondering what I'm doing here, and how we got here. Find myself staggering under unbelief at the reality of the situation. Find myself overwhelmed with the knowledge that every time I've hidden who I am, thinking it was better for everyone else, it only hurt the people I cared about most. Find myself drowning in the awareness that love is gentle, strong, fragile, patient, susceptible, and hopelessly at odds with itself.

Find myself unwittingly a participant.

Find myself wishing that every time I walked away, I didn't. That every time I held back, I didn't. That every time I cried, I didn't. That every time I thought that I was doing the right thing by stifling who I am, I didn't. That every time I've tried to stop myself from falling in love, I didn't.

That I laughed instead. That I acted instead. That I smiled instead. That I loved. That I lived, instead of leaving that responsibility to everyone else.


So you stare at me through keyholes
like I'm some religion in the rain
Your defenses highlight my weaknesses now -
When before - you loved me all the same,
yeah, you loved me all the same.

Wonder what you're doing...
think about what I've done.